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Uncertainty Of Thought

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One of the things about dealing with all of the injuries that were caused by the motorcycle accident involves the constant assessment that I have to make concerning the pains and limitations that I endure. I have had to experience an evolution physically throughout the past years as my body has continued to change in how it hurts and how it functions. This past Sunday I hit my (bad) knee on a piano bench at the church as I walked past it while cleaning a few things. It was a very light and trivial thump with the bench, but the wood-to-leg contact centered just where the end of the screws that hold together my tibia at the side of my knee are located, and it hurt in a big way. After a few seconds I grew accustomed to what I was feeling and I continued to get things ready to leave the building, but the pain uncharacteristically remained throughout the day. It’s Monday evening as I type this entry and the pain remains still, but I’m certain that it will go away within another day or two...

Please Make It Stop

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I went to sleep last night at 11 o'clock. Not too early, not too late. I woke up at 2 o'clock in the morning. I remained in bed, wide awake, until 4 a.m. I then got up to watch a little tv until about 5 a.m., and then I went back to bed and stayed there until about 6:30. I then got up for the day and started to work on everything that needed to be ready for my niece's arrival later in the morning. It's all a little brutal, but it's part of the price paid for riding my bike to get a haircut nine years ago. I was in the hospital from late November until mid-January. I couldn't sleep in the hospital at all, and I really didn't do any better after I finally made it back home. My thought back then was that I would eventually resume a normal sleep pattern after my leg healed and I could lay in bed more normally. Sadly, time has proven me wrong. Every 2-4 weeks my body breaks down and I sleep better hours for one or two nights in a row, but my normal pattern invo...

Silver and Gold

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It’s the night before Christmas Eve and (all through the house 😁) I’ve gotten everything ready for the weekend. I’ve helped to decorate my house inside and out, the presents are wrapped, and I’ve taken care of everything necessary for the services on Sunday. I had to do a little extra for the services because Sunday is Christmas Day and there were some things to do in preparation beyond the usual. All in all I feel pretty good about the way in which the past couple of weeks have worked out and I’m ready for the things needed to celebrate the holiday. In all honesty, I’m not really big on the whole Christmas thing as far as all of the secular type of glitter and festivity, but it makes my wife happy so, you know… My body has been OK through it all, and I haven’t been hindered in getting things done, so that’s the good part. The not-so-good part is that the pain in the injury related areas of my body continues to get worse in small increments with time. I really don’t know what to do ...

A Good Day

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Today I took my niece for a walk around the block of the street on which I live. It's roughly a mile in length, but she likes to look at everyone's house, chase after birds, and attempt to touch anything we run across as I say "no". About three quarters of the way through the trip she asked me to carry her, so I sat her on my shoulders and carried her the rest of the way home. She probably weighs about 30 lbs. It made me think of something that happened nine years ago. A few days before my motorcyle accident I took my car to a mechanic for a repair. I took a backpack full of books and study materials with me in order to get some work done while waiting for the repair to be finished. It turned out that it was going to take the full day for him to get it done so I decided to grab my heavy backpack and walk home. The trip was a few miles, but I made it back without any problem. Incidentally, this was the repair work that led for me to eventually have to take my bike on a...

Tick-tock

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Hello. It's me again. Things here are going OK these days. My body is cooperating with everything that life demands of it lately. I'm getting things done around the house, the church property, and the homes of a relative or two in need of help with repairs. I still take care of my young niece during the workweek while her energy levels and consequent need to playplayplay continue to grow along with her body. All in all things are moving forward from day to day and I'm very much thankful for the freedom that I have to live my life and take part in all of the things that I do. With all of that said, I can feel that things continue to get worse with the body parts related to my accident injuries as time moves on. It's nothing really big, but rather it's just some subtle changes that are evolving over time. It's getting harder for me to walk after I've been sitting for too long a period of time, and it's becoming more difficult to walk without some type of s...

The Unexpected

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I just returned from a two week trip to Israel. My wife and I travelled with a tour group and we were able to see many of the places mentioned in the Bible, along with other cool places throughout Israel and also Jordan. It was very hot throughout and we did a lot of walking at each stop. How much walking you wonder? She logged our walking on her Apple Watch and we walked a total of over 74 miles. Yeah, you read that correctly. Seventy-four miles within a two week period, with very little flat land to enjoy. We seemed to always be going on an upward or downward slope, with a lot of stair steps at many of the different locations. It was a little gruelling, but we really did enjoy every bit of the trip. I made it through feeling really well despite the usual pains, but during the second week I made the mistake of actually looking at the ankle on my "bad leg" from the accident. It had started to hurt at the ankle one afternoon and I checked on it when we returned to the hotel ro...

A New Kind Of Pain

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I have been experiencing a new sensation in my knee the past couple of weeks. Most of the pain that I feel from day to day involves what I consider to be a dull pain. It feels sort of stiff, thick, and generally "sore", like a week-old injury that lingers past the initial severe pain. Now, however, I've been feeling more of what I would describe as a sharp pain. It feels as though something inside is jabbing at me, like a small knife. Bone maybe? Who knows. The thing is that I know if this feeling will go away soon enough, or if I'll just grow accustomed to it and learn to ignore it like everything else. I think that I feel it so distinctly now because it's new and my mind hasn't adjusted enough to simply disregard it. I've had varying pains over the years, both in the type of sensation and the level of severity. Some of it has lingered, and some if it has gone away completely. I believe that this one seems so distinct because it's a sharp pain, sort o...