Convoluted Stuff

One of the strange things about dealing with my body since the motorcycle accident involves the constant existence of duplicity within my mind. I think that a great many people don't spend their days considering the state of their physical condition (vanity aside). I was that way before the accident. I mean, sure, I dealt with my body's existence and needs. I considered things such as weight and pain. But it was always very much fleeting within my mind. Most of my time was spent "living" without much consideration as to what I was living in.

Now, it's more of a consistent focus on pain vs. ability, good blood numbers vs. highs and lows in my levels, energy vs. fatigue, etc. My blood was tested last week and I just read the results of all of the blood work. I have not been doing well the past couple of months and I was certain that my A1C would be high but...nope. The results came back with an A1C level of 5.9 along with most of my endocrinologist's other concerns also testing at good levels. I think that many diabetics would pretty much give up on doughnuts for life if they could test at 5.9 at any given point in their lives. 

So...I haven't been feeling completely well, but my blood says that I'm feeling fantastic. I'm always tired and a little beat up, but I'm having a really great summer as I get a list of different projects finished. Everything's kind of "blah" physically, yet everything's great. You know, I honestly wish that my mind, body, and blood levels would all stop the crazy dance and just speak together in a way that would grant some form of personal harmony. I grow tired of having my body demand my attention, only to produce hassles and confusion. As stated above, "stop it"!