In Need Of Clarity

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I’m kind of vacillating lately in dealing with what I expect to do with my leg in the future. There is an enormous part of me that does not want to have surgery to help with what ails me…ever. I can’t stand the thought of subjecting myself to the whole surgeon/hospital/nurse thing again. The prospect of surgery and the ensuing physical rehab that will be necessary to recover properly is something that keeps me saying that I’ll live with the progressive decline of my leg over the rest of my life.

However, I’m growing tired of dealing with the constant discomfort and hindrance, along with the inability to stand up after sitting for a while and just walking away normally. Simple activities are always hindered by my damaged leg and it would be nice to revive the common freedoms associated with a pain-free leg.

So, is surgery some type of panacea, or is it just a way to feel somewhat “better”? And what would all of that mean after enduring the hassles of going through the whole medical system all over again? For the present time I lean toward the side of avoidance, but I have to admit that it would be nice to have something actually fixed in relation to my motorcycle accident injuries. All that I’ve gotten over the past several years has been a slow decline within the parts of my body affected by the accident. It would be great to see something that could be considered as progress once again. I guess that, for now, I'll watch and wait. It's just part of the ongoing fun of all that happened to me so long ago. I don't know...maybe it'll just be easier to not think about it so much.

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