Past The Need

I once felt the need to prove certain things within the earlier years after the motorcycle accident. Whether to myself, someone else, or the world in general, yeah, the need to accomplish certain things sometimes lurked within the recesses of my mind. I once had a fairly subtle need to ride a motorcle again. The truth is that I was never really a biker, but rather a guy who happened to ride a motorcyle. However, I sometimes felt as though I had to "overcome" my circumstances, losses, and life in general by actually riding again. I also once had a need to accomplish certain goals related to things such as manual labor, or things that I did without hindrance before the accident. I once had a need to reach degrees of progress in what my body could do, but it really didn't involve any true necessity toward advancing physically in my healing, per se. I think that instead it all related to advancing within my own mind the concept that I had the ability to overcome any harm that had been done to me by the accident.

I count it a point of grace today that I really have nothing left to prove. Not to myself, and certainly not to anyone else. I feel that I am at a good level of peace as to what has become of my body and, consequently, my life. I honestly don't have a desire to ever ride a motorcycle again. I have reached so many goals and done so many things since the accident eight years ago that I feel as though there's nothing left for me to prove otherwise. I have also come to terms with the long-range effects of my various injuries. I know that there is plenty of life left ahead for me to live, but each day is just a day. There's no need for me to reach for something beyond the duties, challenges, or pleasures of any given day. I've been done with any need to accomplish or prove anything within my life in relation to my accident injuries for a good while now, and it helps me to feel liberated whenever I think about it. This stupid accident and all of its related injury aftereffects does not invoke any need to satisfy a falsely perceived lack of fulfillment, and I must say that I'd rather be free than to be constantly striving for empty goals. I'm honestly in a good place with my life and my future. 

So yeah, no need to look for any hurdles to jump; they seem to come on their own anyway.