Perseverence

So yeah, the show must go on. I’ve mentioned before that my body is at a stage where things are getting worse little by little. It’s nothing dramatic or debilitating, but I notice the small increments of decline as time passes. My hip is hurting more whether I stand or sit, while the rest of my leg feels pain on and off. The pain in my hip sort of feels as though it’s being stabbed with something sharp inside, but at other times it feels as though it;s getting hot. Weird, yes? My thigh often feels pain along with my hip, but I was told that my femur grew into the muscle a little when it was healing, and the painful discomfort in my thigh continues to convince me that the orthopedic surgeon wasn’t lying. My knee is what it is, but I’ve honestly grown more accustomed to ignoring the way that it feels and the hindrances that it produces throughout any given day. I sometimes have a more difficult time standing up after sitting still for a longer period of time, and I really feel like limping a little at times, but otherwise I just keep moving along in life. Running around the house all day with my two year old niece pretty much keeps me going.

My hand remains completely functional, but my fingers are getting stiffer and the various unpleasant nerve sensations throughout my whole hand persist. It takes me a couple of minutes in the morning to get my fingers to be able to fully close my hand tightly in a fist unaided.  

The good news? I’m livin’ the life and moving on without much hindrance. I get to take care of my young niece, work on various maintenance projects, do things such as fix the car when it needs a new part, and pretty much do as I please throughout any given day. I continue to learn that life isn’t about the challenges, but rather about the need to just do what a day demands of me. I realize that the need for further surgery lies somewhere in the future, but today is a day that warrants a celebration of personal freedom and the ability to just live life with a sense of appreciation and indulgence. I refuse to allow anything else to guide my path.