I'm Not An Expert

I’ve mentioned before that I help to take care of my baby niece during the week. This is the third baby that I’ve helped to raise (my own daughter and this baby’s older sister included), but I seem to learn new things with each one. What I’m noticing with this little cutie is the fact that everything seems to change from day to day. I’d forgotten that about babies through the years. I’m realizing now that her sleep patterns, her eating patterns, and the kind of mood that she’s in (hyper/mellow, playful/fussy, silly/serious) all seem to change from day to day. Every time that I think I’m on top of who she is and what she needs, she changes again. I can only be careful to watch daily and adjust accordingly.

Do you want to know the weird thing about these thoughts? My mind and my body are the same as the baby’s. My physical condition, along with my mood and perspective, seems to change as time rolls on. I believe that things change constantly within my mind concerning my physical circumstances because the rules keep changing regarding the condition of my body. The thing is that personal wisdom should prevail over the shallow values of daily moods or any experiences that I endure as time continues to move forward. It’s just that circumstances seem to change whenever I think that I have a full grip on the aftereffects of my motorcycle accident, and that can be frustrating. I do know that the simplicity of changing circumstances cannot be allowed to overrule the grace that can be found through personal wisdom and perseverance, so onward I go.