Dopus

I’ve been at it again. We’ve been doing some home improvement projects to get our house in better shape. I had to bring everything of this nature to an abrupt halt four years ago when I wrecked my bike and pretty much wrecked my body with it. My wife and I had plans, but they all fell by the wayside as we focused on getting my body to recover. We have started to get several projects going on the house, with some things handled by hired professionals and other things handled by me. I have spent the past week working on things such as the installation of an outside door with a new frame, tons of landscaping, installing outdoor lights, and a bunch of other things that I won’t bore you with. In the end, I’m just sort of wiped out physically. Between the repairs and running several errands, my body has been fighting back in a harsh way. My wife has wanted these things done, and I have a hard time saying “no”. I always feel that she should have better things in this world than a guy who just sits around with pain and fatigue.

My problem is that I know better than to do so much in such little time. I’m sort of hurting myself in a bad way here. Everything looks nice with the house, but I think that I look like a patient that gets lost in the hospital hallway all the time; tired, confused, and burned out. I have worship services tomorrow, and I keep praying that I’ll have the strength to fulfill every duty according to demand. I really need to slow down in the coming week and get to know my couch better. Some people learn valuable lessons when they go in the wrong directions, and then there’s me. I think that I need to wise up and take better care of myself before my body fights back in a way that I won’t be able to handle. My leg and my arm hurt quite a bit, and I’m as tired as I care to be.

Tonight the Red Sox play at nine, and I’m going to try watching the game until maybe the seventh inning. Until then I’ll spend time reminding myself that I was in an accident that changed the way that my body works, and that the way that I function in life has to change as a result. Perhaps I’ll listen this time.