Back And Forth

The past couple of weeks have been a little more rough for me. Things have gone great personally in several areas of my life and I can hardly count the blessings, but my body has been (warning: bad pun ahead) a bit of a pain. It becomes a source of frustration because I will go through periods of time where everything is still a mess, but generally OK. My body has experienced some permanent damage as a result of the motorcycle accident, but at times it seems negligible for the most part within any given day. I often experience a comparatively minimal amount of pain and hindrance. Within the past week or two, however, not so much.

A few days ago I actually had to use a hand brace for two days because of the pain in my wrist. The nerve damage done to my hand and wrist leaves me with discomfort and/or pain at all times, but the pain experienced a few days ago went beyond the usual stuff. I woke up in the night and couldn’t get back to sleep because of the pain in my wrist. The brace helped greatly and after a couple of days everything was back to usual.

My leg has also been in a bad mood lately. I spent most of this past Sunday struggling to walk during the church services and the feeling has continued to this very moment (Tuesday evening). The pain in my leg varies from areas involving the hip, the thigh, the knee, and the shin. The strange part? It varies all of the time according to the mood that my leg is in on any given day. This past week or so the pain has concentrated more on the knee. I have been limping far more than usual.

Also, my body has decided to exhibit a great deal of fatigue lately. I get so tired that I become lightheaded. I don’t know if it’s the diabetes or my body responding to having been beaten so badly, but I’m sometimes in a bit of a daze that borders on being high. I get tired by midday and the feeling lingers into the evening.

These different issues surface from time to time, but the past couple of weeks have been a bit more intense. I get really tired of it and I hope that the coming days provide a change for me. It becomes a little tiresome as my body continues to vacillate between bad, mild, and good. I guess that I should be more thankful that I have good days, and even mild days, but the changes from day to day become frustrating for me to deal with nonetheless. I could really use a little more consistency on the part of the good days.

I sometimes have to remember that the adjustment period is over and this is now my life.